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Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Firasat (Marcell)

Kelmarin, kulihat awan membentuk wajahmu,
desau angin meniupkan namamu,
tubuhku terpaku semalam,
bulan sabit melengkungkan senyummu,
tabur bintang serupa kilau auramu,
aku pun sadari, ku segera berlari,

cepat pulang,
cepat kembali, jangan pergi lagi,
firasatku ingin kau 'tuk cepat pulang,
cepat kembali, jangan pergi lagi,

akhirnya bagai sungai yang mendamba samudera,
ku tahu pasti kemanakan ku bermuara,
semoga ada waktu, sayangku,
ku percaya alam pun berbahasa,
ada makna di balik semua pertanda,
firasat ini, rasa rindukah atau kah tanda bahaya,
aku tak peduli, ku terus berlari,

cepat pulang,
cepat kembali, jangan pergi lagi,
firasatku ingin kau 'tuk cepat pulang,
cepat kembali, jangan pergi lagi,

dan lihatlah sayang
hujan turun membasahi,
seolah ku berair mata,

cepat pulang,
cepat kembali, jangan pergi lagi,
firasatku ingin kau 'tuk cepat pulang,
cepat kembali, jangan pergi lagi,

aku pun sadari,
engkaulah firasat hati..

1:28 PM | 0 Comment

Deep cut..

In pain right now. I think it's rupture. Hurts like hell in it's hottest summer. A simple action could cause a world of over-bearing pain. Usually it numbs out after awhile but this time it's nagging on and on. No matter what i do. Could almost see myself keel and slip into oblivion. At that last moment before i totally lost it all, reached in and pulled out with what i could muster. Whoever i pulled out of that dark, empty space, even if it's a different one, i'm still gonna patch it back to me. Have a destination to reach and i will be there. One way or another. Alone or otherwise. For now, let me heal just enough for the journey ahead. Hurts like a bitch. Or a bastard. Fark it, both then. All i know now is that the cut is deep. That old wound still wanna have a go at time. Go right on ahead. If you win, then at least you and some know that i lived. I existed even if for awhile here. Remember me if you want to. Or forget me if you need to. When you win. Just know that i lived..

12:53 PM | 0 Comment

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Phew..

Really felt more than what the title says, actually. Like one heck of a mountain taken off me and the feeling of tremendous relief sets in welcomingly. Since even before the class started, i was told it was gonna be a tough one to sit through and being there yesterday, looking at quite a large number of people retaking the papers, i was'nt feeling too preppy about it. On top of it all, the lecture room where we were suppose to do the exam in, was like a freezer of sorts. From what i know, brain activity don't really function that well in extreme, antartic-like conditions. Well actually, the management had informed us to wear warm clothes there, but i got the info a bit too late as i was already on the way. Should have at least told us a day before or something but i guess they were all too busy counting the money from the exorbitant fees they charged us. Anyway, after the super uber stress-filling, hair-pulling, mind-bashing, blood-out-the-nose-dripping weeks of studying, that time finally came, yesterday.

My class-mate whom i went there with, Fir, got me all caught up in code-red, panic mode when he launched last-minute quizzes at yours truly. I was unable to get all of his questions right and that made me think if i had focused on the right chapters. Reached out my notes in a final attempt to recap and hopefully help me enough. Was prepared for the worst as we reached there. Few others were waiting outside the exam room and none of them were without eyes on notes or books. Everyone, deep in desperate concentration. I knew how it was like to be unprepared and wasting away time as you sit there, staring blankly at the papers without an earthly clue to what you should fill the empty lines or brackets of the questions that you could read but ultimately not comprehend or piece together. No more of those. Can't afford it.

As i sat there waiting for time to be wasted away again, or so i thought, i saw the faces of those i cannot bare to see if i should fail this paper. The disappointments, even if masked so carefully behind words like, 'It's ok, you did your best. Can always try again. Or, maybe you could try other things? We still love you no less..' Had to shut my eyes for a bit to erase all those thoughts and gathered what little pieces of focus i could find. Flipped through the answer sheets as they were handed to us. Ok so they were empty. Dunno why i bothered. Heh.. Soon as we got the question papers, the examiner told us to check the time and then begin. For some mystically out-of-this-world reasons, i found myself filling up the answer sheets, one after another without much problems. Kept going til the last one and though i got stuck in a few of them, i managed to finish it, miraculously without that all too familiar sense of impending doom in my cardio-vascular system. In other words, i could breathe, like when the first man on this earth did at that momentous time! Missed that feeling of confidence. Of course i won't let myself go further than that but still, this time i know i could do it. Like i said i would. We shall see in 2 weeks time, when i get my results shall we? Peace..

5:53 PM | 0 Comment

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