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Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Floatin on..
Man... I keep bobbing up and down in this endless ocean.. Waves, unpredictable as ever. Think you got some control and then, whoosh.. bloop bloop bloop.. submerged. Life just plunges you in like how it knows best. Struggle all you want, the hand stays on the head which stays under water. Depend on no one else. Either you crack and fill up your lungs, or struggle just a bit more to rise up above..
This work is pulling me in deeper in the abyss of submission. Sometimes i find myself wondering, why? What am i so obstinatiously viva-la-resisting from? I guess uncharted territories are far more appealing than the path ostentatiously presented to us. Kept it all in so far. I know i ain't cut out for it from the 1st day, but still.. I need this. At least to keep minds from further unrest. Yes, other than my own.. needed the 'end-of-the-months' to pull me up for a miniscule gasp of the despondently diminishing fresh air.Ain't no way i'm giving in/settling in. Even if life throws it's version of Kurt Angle's ankle-lock on me. I ain't tapping out. Not just yet anyway.. Working around shady people, in a shady business, for shady hours, to earn a shady penny, will take a dig in your adimantium shell and most probably chip it. Time spent working there is construed in my mindstate and physical well-being. Found myself waking up in pain sometimes. If let be, my back will be the 1st to go. Others, close behind. Yup, it's gotten to that. Only the thought of a select few in my life kept the engine running.
Mal's assuring presence kept me going when i felt empty. Mum's silent worries somehow reached out to shift that gear up as well. Dad's frantic hope in ultimately passing the torch to nestle in the backseat. My bro's hidden fears on being appointed as the next torch-bearer. It's ok baby bro. I will shoulder it for now, so you ain't gotta do it yet. Just a couple more hurdles to get pass and the boat will be in the dock, shall we say. For those onboard, it's not that far ahead. Please abandon ship only when it's titanically sinking. Otherwise, hold on for just a sec.. look towards the horizon and don't forget to smile upon arrival. Then again, i'm sure you will..
Floatin on..
Man... I keep bobbing up and down in this endless ocean.. Waves, unpredictable as ever. Think you got some control and then, whoosh.. bloop bloop bloop.. submerged. Life just plunges you in like how it knows best. Struggle all you want, the hand stays on the head which stays under water. Depend on no one else. Either you crack and fill up your lungs, or struggle just a bit more to rise up above..
This work is pulling me in deeper in the abyss of submission. Sometimes i find myself wondering, why? What am i so obstinatiously viva-la-resisting from? I guess uncharted territories are far more appealing than the path ostentatiously presented to us. Kept it all in so far. I know i ain't cut out for it from the 1st day, but still.. I need this. At least to keep minds from further unrest. Yes, other than my own.. needed the 'end-of-the-months' to pull me up for a miniscule gasp of the despondently diminishing fresh air.Ain't no way i'm giving in/settling in. Even if life throws it's version of Kurt Angle's ankle-lock on me. I ain't tapping out. Not just yet anyway.. Working around shady people, in a shady business, for shady hours, to earn a shady penny, will take a dig in your adimantium shell and most probably chip it. Time spent working there is construed in my mindstate and physical well-being. Found myself waking up in pain sometimes. If let be, my back will be the 1st to go. Others, close behind. Yup, it's gotten to that. Only the thought of a select few in my life kept the engine running.
Mal's assuring presence kept me going when i felt empty. Mum's silent worries somehow reached out to shift that gear up as well. Dad's frantic hope in ultimately passing the torch to nestle in the backseat. My bro's hidden fears on being appointed as the next torch-bearer. It's ok baby bro. I will shoulder it for now, so you ain't gotta do it yet. Just a couple more hurdles to get pass and the boat will be in the dock, shall we say. For those onboard, it's not that far ahead. Please abandon ship only when it's titanically sinking. Otherwise, hold on for just a sec.. look towards the horizon and don't forget to smile upon arrival. Then again, i'm sure you will..
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