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Monday, November 21, 2005
Lebaran Blues..
I know it's a bit late for this, but it's still in the festive month.. That's right. Ain't no different from any others that went past before.. same ol' same ol' as they say. Frankly speaking, each time it comes, i'll be feeling less and less enthusiastic about it all. Hearing the songs on radio or the googbox ain't really helping either. In fact, they sort of make it a lot harder to get through those times. Is it just me, or are there anyone else feeling this shit? I might end up not going out to celebrate on the first day at all if this keeps up.
In the 20's and yet i feel like i had more than enough. Wonder how do the old & the not so old-timers everywhere put up with it. Each year i had to suck it all in for the sake of the people around me and go through the motions. Each time having to endure with this heaviness in my gut and the numbness.. I just can't feel anything. Everything.. This is bad. Losing the spirit. Maybe even lost it.. It is not suppose to be this way right? Suppose to be celebrating and be at your happiest with the loved ones, but why can't i just do that? Circumstances of the moment perhaps? Maybe. These times are now main-stays at the pinnacle of my lowest. When the head finds it so hard to ever look up in the sky.. When the smiles are as empty as the deepest and darkest of space. When the heart feels like it is so pointless to continue beating. When the soul just begs to return to where it was taken from and be free. I can't keep this up, can i? Not when there are still those who insist on my on-going existence. Ain't really in my nature, but the smiles shall etch on, despite the omnipresent even-if's..
I will still put on the traditional clothings and beg for forgiveness on the 1st mornings of Aidilfitri like a good son to his parents. My wish is that they know i meant it as well. For all the angers, disappointments and griefs that i caused them and everyone else that i loved. I'm sorry.. They probably won't ever read this and no one else would care to understand. Heck, i don't even get myself most of the times. Still, it's all about the festivities..
Lebaran Blues..
I know it's a bit late for this, but it's still in the festive month.. That's right. Ain't no different from any others that went past before.. same ol' same ol' as they say. Frankly speaking, each time it comes, i'll be feeling less and less enthusiastic about it all. Hearing the songs on radio or the googbox ain't really helping either. In fact, they sort of make it a lot harder to get through those times. Is it just me, or are there anyone else feeling this shit? I might end up not going out to celebrate on the first day at all if this keeps up.
In the 20's and yet i feel like i had more than enough. Wonder how do the old & the not so old-timers everywhere put up with it. Each year i had to suck it all in for the sake of the people around me and go through the motions. Each time having to endure with this heaviness in my gut and the numbness.. I just can't feel anything. Everything.. This is bad. Losing the spirit. Maybe even lost it.. It is not suppose to be this way right? Suppose to be celebrating and be at your happiest with the loved ones, but why can't i just do that? Circumstances of the moment perhaps? Maybe. These times are now main-stays at the pinnacle of my lowest. When the head finds it so hard to ever look up in the sky.. When the smiles are as empty as the deepest and darkest of space. When the heart feels like it is so pointless to continue beating. When the soul just begs to return to where it was taken from and be free. I can't keep this up, can i? Not when there are still those who insist on my on-going existence. Ain't really in my nature, but the smiles shall etch on, despite the omnipresent even-if's..
I will still put on the traditional clothings and beg for forgiveness on the 1st mornings of Aidilfitri like a good son to his parents. My wish is that they know i meant it as well. For all the angers, disappointments and griefs that i caused them and everyone else that i loved. I'm sorry.. They probably won't ever read this and no one else would care to understand. Heck, i don't even get myself most of the times. Still, it's all about the festivities..
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